We had a wonderful, peaceful Thanksgiving. It was just my son, his wife, Pete & I.
We didn’t do Mexico this year, so we missed Sage, but it was nice just having a good traditional meal from my husband.
Our day ended with the most beautiful sunset ever!!
I missed my dad and realized that he had been with me every Thanksgiving since I was three or four yrs old, this was hurtful. We all miss him and it’s not the same.
Eme was in Texas with Kristie, Sage in Mexico with Bryans family.
It was rather good being able to talk about politics with my daughter-in-law, because she feels the same way we do.
I am thankful for Pete, what I would ever do without him, I just don’t know, and I hope I never have to be in that place. I hope I go first!
I’m thankful for my children and their partners, my grandson and soon to be new baby grandson, my dog April, and our soon to be new puppy Autumn- and just my life. My beautiful home, shelter, food, clothes, and I wish everyone had that- my heart goes out to those who are suffering.
Pics of Amelia on her 29th birthday. This is her last year in her twenties. In your 20’s I feel you are the most beautiful on the outside because you are young. By the time you reach 60 you are more beautiful on the inside because of your wise soul. I would love to see her & Kristie make it official but that is out of my hands and up to them!
I can’t put anything about politics on Facebook, but I can certainly put it on my blog! This man needs to go!!!!!
Last night our family went out to dinner to celebrate Eme’s 29th birthday. It was so nice having just our little family this time.
The baby went to the dentist, this was his second or third time. Sage is the best mother and he had no cavities! She also has him in survival swimming lessons and he is doing so good.
I remember a vivid dream I had when Eme was in prison, my grandma was there. I was outside the prison walls waiting for my daughter to come home and gram showed up with wide open arms It was a really cool dream.
Everyday Pete & I feel completely bothered and pissed about all the evil things that are going on this world. Ice actually attacked a pregnant woman and caused her to miscarry, they also went to a school and terrorized all the little children while they broke into a mother’s car, that was locked, with no warrant, and threw her to the ground.
I am sick with the hate and ugly that is going on in our country because of that evil monster. Could he please please please just go away? And no, I can’t love this man.
and to add some good news to the end of this post.
We are getting a new puppy next week and I can’t wait!!
Sage sent me this video yesterday, I felt so bad when he started to cry..
It was just yesterday that dad drove me to Orem Utah Hospital because they decided to take you early because they were worried about your heartbeat. I knew that I was supposed to have you and I was told what I was supposed to name you.
Rebecca Amelia, after my grandma’s mom, my Great Grandmother.
I think it’s so cool that out of all the millions of people in the world, and all the other worlds in different universes, you and I chose to be in each other’s lives.
You have made me a better person; I love your heart and your soul and I’m so very very proud of you!!
The video below is another first-year baby video.
I remember our healing process together during our darkest days
I remember writing all those letters and sending all those scriptures
I remember God with us!!
Keep flying my angel, we are so proud of you, and you are going to have the very best life!!
I loved being a mom, the best time for me was when they were little.
I can’t believe I turned my back on my baby at the changing table, what was I thinking? I loved watching them dance in the bedroom and bathtime, I wish sometimes I could go back to those innocent beautiful days of their childhood.
I have a thousand home movies, but I tried to trim them down to my favorites.
Last Saturday was our anniversary. We had the best weekend. We took April to the lake and she had so fun playing in the water.
Amelia put this on her story about my life story I wrote for the children last year. The baby is potty training!!
Pete & I love Karl so much and we love to babysit him.
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So, I stayed home from work this past week. I had dental surgery on Tuesday, had to get a molar pulled because I cracked it somehow and it had a root canal that was causing problems. I have been on pain meds, and my mouth is sore. It sucks to have a sore mouth. I take very good care of my teeth. I floss daily, use a water pick and an electric toothbrush. I do not ever want to have to get dentures! Getting my tooth pulled makes me sad and feel old and I do not like this.
I have been trying really hard to work on forgiveness in my life. I do not want to get to heaven and find out I had too much resentment towards people who upset me in this life, I do not want to be brought down from their past mistakes and in how they treated me.
I want forgiveness for my wrong doings, and I need to be able to forgive others if I expect the same.
It’s hard to let it all go; I have dug deep, and the feelings are raw and painful. God tells me to let that shit go, all of it, and just love. I also have learned that God turns beauty from my ashes, and everything is a learning experience, our souls chose our life, and we knew what we would need to do to learn from each and everything that we go through. We are all on our own journey and we all have our own mountains to climb. I have never been to counseling or had a therapist, besides my psychiatrist who only prescribes the meds. My only therapist is God and we talk daily.
What I’m learning is that I can turn everything in my life around, completely. I take the bad and do good with it. I can look at people with a different set of eyes and try to see their soul the good in them through their imperfections. I realize that instead of playing victim I need to be a victor and ask myself questions like, “What can I learn from this?” instead of saying, “This is what happened to me and I’m pissed.”
I have learned through my trails how to be a damn good mom!
How to take ten thousand pictures of my children and record everything about their lives.
How to be a survivor, a warrior, a historian for my family.
And those things are good qualities to have, I’m proud of myself for rising above and turning the crap that got thrown at me into a blessing and happy ending.
I wanted to add the last bit of October images that my daughter sent me, I was able to finish up their scrapbooks for the year today and it is such a relief. My daughters both got two books, because they send me so many, Kash & Susanna got one.
I love my hobby, and I know they love getting all their pictures for the year at Christmas!
Tomorrow is Pete and my 37th wedding anniversary. We can’t believe we have been married this long. It makes us feel so old. But we have made it, we have survived and not only survived but thrived and made the most beautiful life together, when no one thought we would.
vent session:
People who do not have compassion and tolerance for other people are the ones who are doing this life all wrong.
It was so fun, and I loved that we got to go trick or treating with our grandson. He had both his grandparents, his aunts & uncles, cousins, mom & dad, we were all there. I love Halloween and all the fun it brings.
I walked in Sage’s bathroom and saw her, Bryan, and the baby getting ready. My heart melted. They looked so adorable! Sage was Eve Plum, Bryan was Charlie, and the baby was the Oompa Loompa from Charlie and the chocolate factory. Amelia was the golden ticket.
I also wanted to add the pictures of the other costumes that my children were from parties.
The baby would take turns going up to the houses with us, but he would not say trick or treat, he would take the candy and then say, “Next house” it was so cute.
I know I have added some of these pictures before on previous posts, but I will add them here at the bottom in case I forgot.
Eme & Kristie beach get-away with Karl, and the fair. Kash & Susanna game fun with friends, parties, and beautiful Flagstaff in the fall, the girls at the pumpkin patch.
October is a fun month for my family. There is a lot of Halloween festivities to do!
Yesterday I went through and I got rid of so many clothes that I do not wear. It felt so good to de junk again and Pete and I do it all the time. I have three full garbage bags that I’m sending off to Goodwill. I want to help whoever I can who are less fortunate.
You cannot force or expect people to become Christian! Life does not work that way and God don’t care. His love is deeper than this shallow world will ever realize. Project 2025 is in full force, and it makes me sick to my stomach.
Summing it up for me and putting my feelings into my own words goes like this
The rich keep getting richer
the poor keep getting poorer
Innocent people and children are losing their healthcare and snap benefits while Mr. T continues to enforce Project 2025 and builds a new ballroom for his few billionaire friends.
They do not care about anyone else but themselves.
They are doing the complete exact opposite of what Jesus taught.
And it makes me sick.
Favorite scriptures:
“So, whatever you wish that others would do to you, do also to them, for this is the law and the prophets
Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.
Beware of false prophets who come to you in sheep’s clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves. You will recognize them by their fruits
Matthew 7
I recognized Trump by his fruits a hell of a long time ago, and those who refuse to see it are blind.
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